eyan is sick

sigh. Bye bye 29.

Even though we are apart, I can feel you here next to me :'(

I just dunno what say anymore. I want my happiness back. Him who always there for me, thanks for cheering me up. Even though i didn't know you that well, but thanks for your time. Yes, you're right, i can't do anything about it.

To you, youknow who you are I'M HURT.

29 March 2009

sigh

Give me a reason to fall in love
Take my hand and let's dance
Give me a reason to make me smile
Cause I think I forgot how

I wanna fall asleep with you tonight
I wanna know that I am safe when you hold me tight
I wanna feel like I wanna feel forever

Girls need attention, and boys need us
So let's make everybody glad
That they have each other in each others arms
Oh let's make everybody glad

I want you.

Yesterday was awesome! Got to meet them girlies. I really miss them so much! Thanks for the ride Bilah and yes i envy u cause u got to drive my dream car! hahaha :p
To Eiraa and Sas babes too! They know how to make me happy. Shopping baybeehhh. Next time ah Eira u hafta M me. hahaha. Uknow get what i mean right ra? :p I love you to bits.

After a long day with them, at night i got to meet my dream boy. hahaha. I really had fun with you. "Look!" Gilaa man tarus kami tukar meja. Ada big black lizard wah. Euww much. Yes both of us hate lizard, insects. And to add it on, he knws me better. I love you. Woops :p

Thanks Bilah, Sas and Eiraa@Mallj for the awesome day. and to you toooooo hottie.
I like you :p Oh yea for you i'd do it all over again.

And to aunty it was good to have you back! I love you! :)

Later i have party to attend. Well its more like BBQ bday party at Diana's place. To you handsome don't worry, i remember all your advices. I'll be a good girl. hahaha. Gilaa mcm boring my post ah hehe.

Gotta go nak chat dulu dengan Yaya.
Till then earthlings! :)

Okay lets talk about last night and today :)

Last night i had a little chat with this guy. Not to mention. But yea he's so funny. He got this emoticon named as eyan :p Cause i always use that emoticon and he find it funny. haha.
Hence that i just downloaded new messenger so i kinda like lack of new emoticon :)

Today is Bilaah the cherries 17th Birthday! Happy 17th Birthday you Catwoman. Don't forget about my uh Mee Basah and Pizza. You owe meeeeee :p and yeah have a blast on your birthday. To add it on the birthday girl damam ahh, kesiann. Get well soon babe! :p and a very Happy Birthday to Dianaa too! Have a great one this year babe!

I was looking through my picture folder, and yea youuuu! You've been missed handsome! :)
Hope youre doing just okay. Don't forget to cut your nails okay? If you hair getting tabal or panjang do cut it short okay? I know how you lovee to look good :) and yea how kambang you are when your hair lawaa :p

Err.. i rarely go out sudah but tomorow i might going somewhere with my MD-ian friends.

and the song playing .. i love it. I gotta be strong. Yeahh i need to :) and i really need someone to catch me when i'm fall. hahaha :p

Okay i gotta go.
Take care earthlings :)
xx

and I took a test again on what Romantic movie couple are you? :)

Tadaaaa... Allie and Noah :p

THE NOTEBOOK. when you break up , you always wind up to get back together again and you and your lover are actually really really close.

how i wish...

I took a test and ..
Baby, I'M LITTLE MISS MAGIC

You are totally unique and everyone wants to be your best friend. with a flutter of your long lashes. They guys are drooling. You are a lil STUNNER hun!

Good Night Everyone! xx

Hey what's your right kan delete me from youu momma punya msn?

I just wanted to have a nice conversation with her. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?

Hello Earthlings! Hows your day today? :)
Today I'm so happy! Got to chat with uh ... I love you Mama Aunty.
Later we chat again okay?

Pictures above were taken, 1st and 2nd pictures of me and Gorgeous Yean were taken by Aiman the photogs :)
3rd pic by my sister, that time Gyrah was at my place to do our assignment together :)
the 4th one by Abdul Khaliq JR haha. Wazzaa? Apa ada yaaww? :p
They really made my day!
Thanks people.
xx

Ehh bitchhh! Gilaa murah usul mu ahhh. Mcm BITCH! hahaha. Lawa lagi aku menari kaliii. hahahaha. ROT IN HELL LAHH BITCH!

M.I.A

Sorry for not blogging. Yea M.I.A ku yooo. haha.
I love them soo much! Youknow who you are guys! :)
I didn't get enough of sleep for these few days. I only had like 3hours of sleep.

I love you Mom and i really am sorry.

I just wanna keep it low. So yea dear reader, thanks for the advices yea? :)

About Faisal and me? We're friend now. I know its hard and hurts to know the truth about uhh, i don't wanna mention it here. I just wanna keep it low. We've promised that one day we might be back together again :) I really can't wait for the big day. We love each other very much but we got the reasons for not being together for now. But someday i hope I'll have the chance to be with him again. No promises he said. But I'll wait for you no matter what.

For now i just wanna be single. I'm not ready to be in a relationship. Cause i hate being hurt over and over again.

Dear hottie friend if you happen to read this, I LOVE YOU! :)
I know you'll be reading my blog. Leave something at the tagboard yea? Hugs!

Morning people! Rise and shine :)

I wanna thanks to the taggers for the advices. I really need that. My life now i think kinda miserable. I always got cheated by the one whom i loved so much. I hate my life, and i think its not fair that i never have a thought of having affairs when i was still in a relationships. I'm the one who stick to one. Well yea before i did pulang but thats because of youknow lah dulu atu damit masih. hahaha. Apanya org "cinta monyet" :)

But to be honest when me and Faisal still together, i really thought he was the one for me. He was my everything. I never cheated on him. I was so loyal even till now. and i admit that i can't live without him. My family love him so much. They put all their trust on him. Now when my mom knw that we're not together anymore, she just diam and all she said was "Eyan, jgntah pikir pasal ia lagi. Ani kau concentrate arah study mu saja" Well yea i know most of parents wants their children to be successful in the future. My dad said "Biar tia yan, nanti one day sadar ia tu siapa yg baik and siapa yg jahat, masa ni belajar saja dulu" Oh yea with proud i answered my dad "Awu bah, eyan mau ia suffer for the rest of his life, and yan inda maafkan ia selamanya". Sorry to say that but you deserves that.

Night after having a long talk with my dad. I realized that he still in my mind so decided to msg him and tell him to come over at my place to talk over things as in we end our beautiful relationship in a good way. Guess what? He didn't cme lastnight. What the hell man? Such a coward! Couldn't stand seeing me crying? Then why'd you buat me cry in the first place? Cubatah pikir kan ah, even after that incident at the Mall happened i still have the heart to msg him. He never appriciate every little things that ive done for him. NEVER! If he has the heart, he would go to my house and gave Eyan and Faisal time. But no, nada wahh. Gilaa man give up banar ku sudah ni.

If you happen to read this dear, you still owe me. Yes, you! The one who broke my heart to pieces. If you are really single then stay that way.

Okay i'm DONE and i'm giving up. Thank you so much!
Pretty much disappointed though.
But never mind.

Hai new boyfriend! I love you, you, you :)
HAHAHA.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you...

I can't go out tonight! Uwaaaa. Hey you i need you :(

NIGHT!
Eyan - signing off.

People, i wanna go out tonight like seriously. I wanna meet my friends di Kiulap :)
Wait for me okay? I'll try to find a ride.

I used to have someone to bring me anywhere and everywhere i want. But.. sigh. Now i miss that person soo bad. But its not the right thing to do now. Heyyyy movee on girlllll! and i miss talking to that someone. I need my bestfriend wahhhhhh. Mana youuu? My house door always open for you, youknow that? I wanna hold you hands again :( ehh emo tah pulng nah. Please don't hurt me anymore cause i cant take it anymore youknow?

I got new boyfriend? hehe. Its for me to know and for you to find out. Haha. I'm single, haha mcm promo saja. hehe. I'm not ready yet for having a new boyfriend tho. You still in my mind sweets ku! :) Wait for you, should i? neah i dont think thats a good idea.

But i messed up myself lastnight. Sorry mommy.

To that someone; You can always come over here. Eventho we're not in a relationship anymore.
You can always talk to me :) Eyan your only bestfriend kali ahh.

I might sleepover at KB soon. Holiday is just around the corner bah :) But i got like a bunch of assignments. sigh.

Bah thanks for reading my boring life story. haha.
I love you, youu, youu :)

Sorry mommy! I really had to do it.
I saw him yesterday. And thats the end.

I will never ever be the same person you once knew.

and people from now on change my name link to "eyan"
He's no longer the author of this blog.

Thanks people. I love my new boyfriend! haha. xx

How i spent my days. Yes they were all girls :)
I love them soo much! xx
Iman, Sadah, Nunu and yea Yean si cute girl. rawrr. haha.

16 more days to go :)

You are the reason that I breathe.

----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.
Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest
And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
Freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves
Aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
But rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
Inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.



-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and
Highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex.
Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to
Dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
Imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
Literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike
Being at home. Restless. Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited.

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
'cause lately all we do is fight
and every time it cuts deeper

'Cause something's changed
You've been acting so strange.

Whaddap? :(

People listen to this song :(
I try to move on.
Maybe that's what best for me. I cried non-stop for like the whole day.
I wanna thanks to Sadah cause being there to calm me down and yes you, youknow who you are. xx

You said move on, where do i go?
I guess second best is all i will know
Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you (if i do have one tho)

How do i get better if once I've had the best?
You're the best, and yes i do regret.

You know what I am sick of holding this back man. I just have to let it out. Now that i think of you, i think that you were such a hypocrite. You ordered me around and told me what i should and should not do and who i can be friends with or not be friends with. oh i did it all honey. i did it all because I thought by doing this you would know that I respect you and I love you only. but then at first i thought it was out of love. but then i got stabbed on the back over and over again. i put up with bullets shot in my heart ,armed by you. Told you baby i love you its okay. Well its not.

People i'll be away for awhile till god knows when. I think i have loose control =/
Really can't wait for tonight, i better get ready now or else. Don't mad at me okay, if I'm late, and not to forget your "A walk to remember" hehe. See you tonight.
And for Saturday too, i'll think about that too. For youknowwhoyouare, sushhh okay?
I'll be seeing you people. Toodles.

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.


I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you.

i miss US :(

You'll never understand why I hurt so much because you're not the one who is crying, you're not the one who is left behind, you're not the one who loved too much, and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone...

Over time things change and things disappear, but your love and your devotion stays embedded, like stone, in my heart for my eternal days.

Same it feels, the way it was before, the frame might change, but I can't forget your remains.

Eyan's here. Stop accusing him and assuming things, that you yourself are not sure of. Just let it be, okay?
I just need you guys to pray for our happiness. I need to be strong okay. Things just get so complicated.

Experience is the worst teacher; it gives the test before presenting the lesson ...

US! we will be back readers. trust me! we will. i love you eyan, i fight for our love.